kimia kah lagi ??

Aku mula jatuh hati kepadamu ,
Setelah kau kata cinta padaku .

Masing-masing dulu punya pasangan ,
Akhirnya kita bersama .

Pertama kali kita bersua bertentang mata , ;((
Terasa ada kimia di antara kita .

Kau kucup pipiku ,
kau bisikkan cintamu ,
Kau kata baby I love u, ;((
kau cairkan hatiku .

Bahagia ku rasa ,
Disaat kita berdua bersama .

Memandang bulan terang ,
Menyaksi bintang-bintang ,
Kau seru aku lah pelangi cintamu .


damn i miss u hazwanie abu hassan .

.tesco 7 disember 2009.

malas !
serius shit ,
pagi tady malas betol nak g kerja .
jam pagi tadi ,
ntah tunjuk aq pukul braper ta .
mate ta nmpak sangat ,
tgk umah dah kosong .

malas !

bgn , mandi , bgn balik , kopi .

drive .

ape benda yg aq pk sampai leh drive mase ngantuk .
hebadd .

sampai tue leklok lah kul 9.45 .
menung2 lak aq .
sempat aq g kat belah beras sane .
ape wat pon aq ta tahu .

10pg.
keje lah !
keje aq hary neh ,
TERMENUNG ,
amende ea?
cam hang2 aq riny .

tbe2 ,
aq denga ade langau kat telinga ,
aqpon cam nak halau lah ern ,
upenyer CUSTOMER dowlll !
aq sekodok selambe ayahanda aq ,

"sorry2 cik wanie , saya ta perasan ade customer tadi ."
damn ! dahlah aq ta perasan dary tadi die tanyer aq ,
ade lak nyonya cine uh aq g pggl wanie !

perggh , luckily ,
SUPERsetanVISOR aq tade kt ctue .
merahjambukelabu gak muke aq tadi ,
malu !
pucat !
sumerlah ,

erm ,
kalawlah hary2 camnie ,
mau garam aq letak dalam kopi ,
susu aq tuang atas nasi .

alfie2 .

.birthday fellow.

happy birthday lar buat kaw k kawan !

dah tua ,

soe semalam ta dapat nak wish sebab
sedg berkrisis , ;pp

kaw kawan terhebadd okie !
selamat hary jady en. enol ;))

p/s ; name tue tuka lah jadi enol ea.haha.

.perang.

lepak2 balik keje neh.
tbe2 aq teringat balik ,
aq nak say tahniah lar ekh ,
kepade en. enol .
yang telah berjaya mendapatkan ,
trofi kemenangan beliau ,
iaitu ,
pn. carv kakak ku .

yeah ! jangan ever give up ,
e2 lar yang aq nak sakap ary neh .
kalo cepat jer kiter say ,
" dats it lah ! "
relationship takan tahan lame.
fight for u love frens !

p/s ; soe cury picta anda yer. ;p

.ber-chapter2.

chapter pertama ,

oklah , biler dah keje , mestylah penat .
sumpah rushing amat nak sampai umah .
keluar2 plak .
opppsss .
jem .
mungkin roty abes sampai jem melimpah2 d depan tesco .
malas nek tunggu ,
aq jalan ikot jalan belakang ,
adoi pulak .
macam ne jalan bertam pon jem??
aq berteleku d dalam myvi oren tue selama hampir sejam.
terasa macam bawak honda lame yang nak mati enjin.
mgkin kerana ujan ,
lam ketepon aq leh ase stym~
haha . sejuk sangat ??
;p

chapter ke-dua

"amek aq lah kak!"
malas betul aq nak melayan kerenah sepupu ,
baru umur 15 ,
motyf nak dtg umah ,
nak tgk blue d internet .
PEREMPUAN pulak tue.
adoi.
resah gelisah aq dwatnyer.
malas nak amek.
tpy , kesian lak .
UJAN.
dah grab kunci kete.
"kak , ta payah lah , aq nek moto atuk , kaw tggu ."
cool jer ayat , aq lepak kol awek.
tbe2,
" kak , minyak moto empty , tggu ujan reda aq dtg "
lantak kaw lah.
tbe2 bagi salam depan umah.
terus lah pegy on lappy aq.
malas nak cakap pnjg , aq tggalkan dea ,
lapar lak ase .
loading punyer loading ,
tuppppp .
black out .
bukan dapat tgk pon.harapan.
dtg jalan kaky kaw nak tgk blue ern ?
law wawan ade ,
pasty die akan kate ,
"lau g mesjid jalan kaky sanggup kan bagus ??"
haha

chapter ke-tiga

malas nak amek mama hary neh.
cakaplah aq demam.
memangpon.
selsema , batuk , sakit kepala.
semua menerpa.
dah dapat rehadd.
tbe2 terjadinyer chapter dua tady .
adoi .
tbe2 mama balik ,
mama kater rugi tade tadi ,
boss die anak sunat ,
bagi ampau kat anak2 staff ??
rm20 melayang .
ape naseb ??

chapter ke-empat.

hary nie gotong royong ngn kaka carv ,
mengedit pro5 die .
sape2 leh bgth aq kenaper ?
pro5 die da takleh nak ke 1.0 ?
bengang gak aq + ta pooas haty !
erm.
last2
plain n simple jugak kaka pilih
yelah kaka ,
ikot kaw!

chapter ke-akhir .

malam pon dtg ,
tetibe aq ase rindu lak kat kawan2 skulah ,
adoi .
hary yang hary2 tol !

.doa.

emm.
the most stupieddddddd mistakes i've ever did.
god , fergive me fer being so silly.
help me.
wanna study.


MISTAKES TEACH ME RYTE??

help me.
ive LEARNT LOTS from my MISTAKES.

.test.

.rupenyer , kaw saje nak test aq kan sayang?.
.huh , syukur jer aq semua neh just test!.
.aq sayang kawlah.




.naseb baek test dan dugaan dan cobaan neh ,
ALFIE LULUS!

eyh kaw wanie!

aq sayang , sayang , sayang lah!

.remember.

i admit the mistakes ,

sorry.

take good care.

i love you.

so hard to let you go that i almost DIE trying.

and dear ,

i never have the guts.


remember me.

i don't care if u wanna remember me ,

as the

best

or the

worst.

just remember.

.sadys.

hey girl!
imy okie!
sangat2!





hey girl!

saye harap awk bahagia dengan die.
siapepon die tue.






bialah awk bahagia
tanpa mengetahui betape dalam haty saye terluka.



teryma kaseh.

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel
Without you here beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked outta the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights
When I held you beside me

date of the wednesday

how am i supposed to be?
will i ask here?
am i that bad?
am i that useless?

to be sitting in the chair where i'm hated?
makes me keep thinking and asking.
what wrong have i done?

again,
when someone just say,
'I DON'T LIKE HER'
and that her is referring to ME.
it just HURT.

and knowing someone like me.
just well pace with the situation,
again, makes me asking.
am i supposed to be here?

AM I ACTUALLY IN THE RIGHT PLACE,
AT THE WRITE TIME?
may god and faith answer it all.

.leisure.

when waiting for time,signatures lost n cheers.
these may be things that we can provide to make us feel better.

.TRUST.
.TRUTH.
.LOVE.
.WORDS.

being at that moment of thinking.
it should make me scared.
that.

LOST IS SOMETHING.
I MUST FEAR TO.
I MUST FACE.

should i say.
sitting in this chair.
makes me suffer a lot.
as sometime
DOUBT win the GAME.
and trust just FADE away~

.this is 6am.

as early as never.
do ibu said.
"CEPAT eyoz bangun? buang TEBIAT ke anak ibu ini?"
i wonder if the mother sense knew that her daughter,
is no more there?

im just not in the heart anymore.
im HOPELESS till end.
im hoping for the best.
as the best is going as far as possible.
POSSIBLE.
reminding me to sumone.

i wonder if she's the one.
but no!
i don't think so.

as joking means LAUGHING the whole way.
this is NOTHING like a joke.
this is something that barely makes me BREATH.

being betrayed,is one sickness i can barely stand with.
yet,nothing to be said.
nothing left to be spoken.
as my HEART.
break like GLASSES.

AS LOVING U HURTS.
i kept hurting myself.

im off to bed.
knowing that TODAY will never be the SAME.
and.
knowing that TODAY will NEVER WAKE ME UP.

wronged.

of all the sudden.
everything changes in a matter of second.
before, it was LAUGHING.
happily waiting for the time.
now.......
it was NOTHING.

i'm again as DULL as ever.
i LOST my precious thing here.
its that hard to be said.

lover, ill never b far.
as long as u LOVE me.
i'm always in your heart.
once you THROW me.
i'm still there.
next to you.

yet,SO DULL that u DON'T even KNOW me anymore.

this is a FORBIDDEN one.
guess.....
i just need to be there.
to SUFFER
to CRY
to just look in her eyes.
and know.
that she's not that strong to continue.

my love for you, HAZWANIE ABU HASSAN,
will NEVER fade.

theCOUNTDOWN.

tonight, SEPTEMBER , 21ST , 2009.
here in diz empty space.
looking at the clock.
waiting for wednesday to come.
wednesday?
or maybe TUESDAY?
as HOPED?

is it to many to ask?
to be waiting and making this countdown,
is just one SICKNESS to bare.
now , knowing its been POSPONED?
what should i say?

happy EID?

.tonight.

sitting in this chair of situation,
making me realize how life is just the matter of LIFE and SENSATION.
i'm in this room of QUESTIONS.
whether this coming days.
could be held as strong as i cant.
whether i'm that strong to go on.

WHAT if,
MISS come?

HOW if,
she's NOT THERE?

WHEN will,
i SEE her again?

HOW can i,
be that STRONG?
THINKING she's that FAR?

this PAST days,
had been go through TOGETHER.
as for you to know sayang,
i've been thinking of how this coming day.
should be.
WITHOUT YOU.
NEXT TO ME.

22nd of nothing

saying;
my words means nothing.
in my sense of humor.

sayang.i do love u.
as the songs plays.
i do wanna say.
DEAR MY PRINCESS.
I WAS BORN TO TELL U I LOVE U.
and I DO SAYANG.

saying;
dear girl,having u here.
makes me realise.
that a girl like u.
is too precious to let go.
and dear my BABY,
i wanna make u mine.
please STAY WITH ME TONITE.

saying;
my girl.yes!
what u've said before,was a true one.
waiting was just one sickness that sumtimes,
I JUST CAN'T BARE.

saying;
dear my nyawe,
knowing that sumtimes
'me' makes u tear into pieces.
makes me feel like im worthless.

dear,
all this words.
came from my damn heart,
sumtimes.
i so feel im not for u at all.
ure to perfect.
for a person like me.
at least,that's what u make me think.

but dear.
i do love u.
till the my last breath.
im sorie.
my promise is to prtect u.
n damn i'll keep it a promise.
cause girl............
.YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING.

something of nothing

emm.rarely noe whats goin on tonyte.
emm.
having this FIGHT wif sumone u most RESPECT.
sometimes do make u think.
how the changes of LIFE n STATUS,
may CHANGE absalutely EVERYTHING in the way of
to RESPECT or to HATE?

i always tought that people change by time.
as the age INCREASE, the MATURITY do increase?

but tonite,i do smell the mistake of my tought.

people do CHANGE.
not by AGE.
but by envy , life and status .

hanving this tought
that the one we once respect CHANGES by that factor ,
makes me think TWICE ,
IS THERE ANY ROOM FOR A PERSON LIKE ME?

that nyte.

its been a very cold nyte.
HURTING.
damn sorie gugurl.
what eva do happen.
im so sorie.
i didnt meant to let u go.

but ya.
do sumtimes the feeling came of LETTING AWAY.
im sorry.
damn noe dat ure HURT too.

gugurl.
letting u go..
makes me DAMN WEAK.
wont REPEAT that damn MISTAKE again.
promise ya.
as i love u so much.

gugurl.
today.at tiz specific time.
as im writing tiz post.



i look in ur eyes.
n realise...how PRECIOUS u re to me.

GUGURL.

dont u ever LET me go.

as ure the most precious thing in my life.

that kinda smile.

yes.its a MEMORABLE SMILE.
looking at that smile.
makes me sure.
that i can do it.
and i did it.

gurl.
when u CRY at that specific moment.
again damn sorie that i just can't remember the fact of timing.
u makes me damn WEAK.
seing thet tears flowing from that smooth cheek.
makes me WONDER.
how strong am i to PROTECT u.

i just feel useless seeing that tears.
sorie that im not there next to you.

and so i take the trouble to call u.
its like lightning striking into my ears.
as i hear u cries.
gurl.
im sorie i wasn't there

but yet,now.

i felt the glory.

as i suddently saw u smile.

that kinda smile with the tears on ur cheek.

makes me realise.

that i am capable to protect u..

and my gurl.

hope to PROTECT u till end.

night of 26th may

of all the days.
i wonder why she pick diz date.
urm.
let me write here that as the matter of 'SACRIFYING'..
i do feel HURT
yet..
NEGLECTED

sumtimes i do feel sum kinda FOOLISH.
as she'd told me b4,tiz is WHO SHE IS.
i shouldnt feel diz way.

knowing that she's there.
make me damn speechless..
listening to that sweet voice of her.
makes my tounge just cant move.
'boboy'

with her.
i learnt that love is not that easy to get.
i do SACRIFICE.
'sayangs'

by all means.
she's my sunshine.
to noe her.
makes me smile.
yet 4get that HURT side of me.

im waiting 4 3105.
in de damn cold nyte.
wonder where is she now.
in the CAR.
KL to S.ALAM.
sis n her.

*mishk*

L.O.V.E

new day in my life..
as far as im concern..
its been a WONDERFULL beginning starting from that day onward..
and may i say..
again, I FORGOT the date.

i guess the date is 23th april..
im sory again if im in the wrong side of fact again..



3105;
knowing u in my life....
just bring SMILE and LOVE..
knowing u makes me understand the fully context of FATE

3105;
in love with u..makes me forget everyone else in my life
knowing u...
is everything now..

but yet 3105;
sumtimes i knew my love couldn't be stronger than DOUBT.
i realise that ur DOUBT always win..
and as far as i know..
the more ur doubt win..

THE WEAKER I GO.

soul3105,
knowing u makes the sun shine so bright in mallacca..
having ur eyes looking at mine...
makes me felt secure to know that ure always there..

3105;
i wonder if u knows that beautiful eyes of yours..
could make me 'MENGGELABAH' out of nowhere..
i wonder if u knows.that smile of urs..
could make my body 'GATAL2' for a while..

3105;
i knew..that as far as u love me..
it is MEANINGLESS,
if im not yours yet..
dear..wait..
and please..dont let ur doubt win again..
coz...
as long as ot kept winning..
it makes me WEAKER.

GONE AGAIN

now.its really late at night.
tomorrow will be the FINISHING day for me.
as 27th is the date.
i noe..as far as ur concern..
i ve been a hypocrite person to be happy in front of ol..
yet DAMN SAD deep down here.
but..thats who i am...
guys..
thanks 4 beeing all da way till i REACHED this part of ma life.
here i am.STANDING on the deemest stage of mine..
the lime light didnt hurt my eyes anymore.
as there r no more limelights.
ALL my lights..
were SWITCH OFF by myself.
i have to STAND on this SPECIFIC STAGE.
as i have no other other stage.
when i LET this off...
i noe it will feels like letting my own SOUL.
but its better diz way..
as...
my day went away...
i noe...
that SHE'S ALWAYS IN MY HEART.

SEKEJAP RASENYER

lohh...da nak masuk bulan 5 dah..jap jer da nak masuk bulan 7..
bile pikir balik kan...
berat susah rasenyer nak berubah jadi matangkan??

hmphh....
SELAMAT TINGGAL??
kepade...
MJ,QILATAM,EZA AMALINA,mangQI,QILAYAZ,NISA NORDIN,DIYANA NADIRAH,
MB,NOREIHAN YAAKOB,SHUHADAHANY ZAINURY.
selamat tggal kenangan stpm [sayangku]

pastu pasti aq rindu plak...
kat batch paling sempoy stpm...
batch paling havoc...
paling gler...
cikgupon sayams..
batch aqlar toh ann..

SELAMAT TINGGAL...
kepada..
BEEYA,SEMIR,DIEDA,WATON,NIETA,IENA NODIN/AZMAN,JALY [membe nyanyiku ] ,

SISY,ATENZATI,AWIN,ACIM,SYIEMA,MICK,NANADENAN,

LIMAH[bedak ].lol~banyak sangat lar..
SELAMAT TINGGAL..
aq da nak masuk u dah..

paling berat aq nak tinggalkan..
paling aq sayams..

SELAMAT TINGGAL
kepada..
ALONG [farahin ramlan],
UDA [airin abu bakar]
dan paling pasti...
UCU[azieyanie johar]
sumpah aq ta tahu mane nak cari kawan paling terbaek cam korunk kan!!!
takan dapat aq nak cari cam korunk ble aq da kat u nanti..
sayams3 korunk...
MENGHARAP Y KITER SEKOLAH SELAME2NYER................

LIE

whole day living in LIES n hipocracy..
SMILING.yet in the same time.
HURT.
may i ASK..
what does the word HURT brings here.
seeing from the context of hurt that i am saying.
IT FEELS LIKE DYING.
but looking at the brighter side of it..
ya...its a KARMA..
COMING back to me.
a SIMPLE question could be a very HARD one to be ANSWERED.
i LOST my soul.
YET,
why should i pretend to LAUGH?
why should i pretend to SMILE?
sumtimes it just HARD to answer a simple question.
but,let me tell u here.
smiling n laughin 4 that specific moment.
makes me know...
that she's HAPPY to be there.
yeah.
sounds like i need to LIE.
I WOULD LIE A THOUSAND TIME,
if that makes her STRONGER.
although...
BELIEVE ME...
im getting WEAKER...

i wonder whats going on in my mind.but.
this 4 U saya cipta lagu ta seberape neh...

REBAH DIRIKU DIHEMBUS ANGIN.....
KALA TUBUHKU TERASA DINGIN.....
SEJUKNYA MENERPA KE MINDAKU.....
MENGIGIT SETIAP KUDRAT KU.....
.. ..
KALA BINTANG KU LIHAT BERSINAR.....
WAJAHMU MUNCUL DI BALIK SANG BULAN.....
MEMBUAT KU MEMALINGKAN WAJAH.....
TAK SANGGUP MELIHAT BAYANGMU.....
.. ..
KU ANDAI KAU TIDAK MERASAKAN.....
APA YANG KU LUAHKAN.....
KERNA PASTI KAU SEDANG BAHAGIA.....
D BAWAH REMBESAN CAHAYA ITU.....
CAHAYA YANG BUAT KU TERLUKA.....
KINI MENJADI MADU HIDUPMU.....
TERPAKSA JUGA KU RELAKAN.....
TUK MELIHAT SEKUNTUM SENYUMAN.....
.. ..
KU TAK HEBAT KALA BERMADAH.....
BUKAN SEPERTI PENSYAIR INDAH.....
HANYA JUJUR Y KU LUAH.....
KERANA AKU YANG BERSALAH.....

*LATE*

am i LATE??

may the word LATE explain everything here.

as i have a LATE feeling that come after LOOSING.

as i have a LATE reaction that occurs after its OVER.

as i have a LATE consiousness,after its all left MEANINGLESS.

as a BIG question in my LIFE.

am i that LATE??

as i am saying about IT.

it came crossing

to my mind,if the word late doesn't exist.

should i BE..

inSCENSITIVE??

inAWARE??

or maybe, HEARTLESS??

should the word LATE answer EVRYTHING.

lonely

this one here,
goes out to all my playas out there.
you know.i got that ONE GOOD GIRL whose always been there like..
you know took all the bullshit..
then one day she CAN'T TAKE IT no more.
and decided to LEAVE..
woke up in the middle of the night and i noticed my girl wasn't by my side.
could've sworn i was DREAMING for her i was FAINTING.
so i had to take a little ride.
back tracking over this few years tryina figure out what i do to make it go bad.
cause ever since my girl LEFT me..
my whole life came CRASHING..
im so lonely..
im mr lonely..
i have nobody..
to call her my own..
i cant believe i had a girl like you..
but i just let u walk right out of my life.
.after all i put u through...
u still stuck around and stayed by my side..
what really hurt me is i BROKE UR HEART.
baby u WERE GOOD GIRL..
n i had NO RIGHT..
i just wanna makes things right.
coz without u gurl
im so lonely...
im mrlonely..
i have nobody...
to call her my own ...girl...

lepas akhirnya

sis...its been LONG since we met..
just as what i remembered...
it was one evening in 2005 at the field that u SAW me at first.
my sport training day...
as i remember it must be either MONDAY or THURSDAY..
as that was the day of my training...
wonder if u still REMEMBER that moment..
couse i DONT..
cause u keep it to urself...
until 2007...at that specific day,SORRY to say that i FORGOT.

sis....
i wonder if u noe...
how much i realy CARE??
cause i NEVER do TELL.
but i do care...n to SAY,i am LOSING.
you.

sis...
rase mcm baru semalam kiter KENAL kat ASTPM.
rase baru semalam awak bagi kiter KUNCI kaler BIRU toh..
rase baru semalam kite LEPAK together kan??
rase baru sejam lepas awak STUDY MATHS nan kiter sampai kiter BERJAYA dah capai CITE2.
rase baru jer jugak sejam lepas kiter datang UMAH awak makan tomyam ade CENDAWAN.
rase baru seminit lepas awak bagi kiter 3helai tshirt,HITAM,OREN,SOKLAT.tahu jer awak itu KALER kiter SUKER kan??
rase baru semalam jer awk JAGE kter mase kaki kite patah..TUAM kaki kiter..cop SHOWER kite..siapkan tempat solat kiter..TEMAN kiter pegi skulah tiap pagi[yelah manusia paling lambat time tue la katekan.] BAWAKKAN beg kiter sampai kelas kat TINGKAT 3..tggu kiter kat 'mcd' skewl tiap hari tok bawakan beg LAGI.ambilkan MAKANAN kiter dari dining.kadang kiter terfikir,kiter adeq qer.awak adeq??ta terkire JASA awak time tue.
dan sis...
rase baru sesaat lepas awak maseh ada lam PELUKAN kiter,n nampak muke awak tiap2 pagi BANGUN kat ostel nun...
tapi...skarang kiter da kene pegi dah...
LEPASKAN awak kat orang y lebih BERHAK..
kiter harap...orang tue takan LUKEKAN awak macam kiter dlu..
SUSAH nak lepaskan adek kiter yang satu2nyer neh...
yelah...bertahun2 bawah JAGAAN kiter kann...
sekarang da ade y PUNYER.
awk y kdue lepas ami.

sis...
TAKE CARE.
JAGA HATI DIE.
macam mane awak SELALU jaga HATI kite.
now i LET u go.

sumtimes when we start thinking

to tell u the truth...
today...at 11.05p.m at night...
i kinda realise...WHAT THE HELL IS ACTUALLY GOING ON IN MY LIFE YA???
im damn sad of what going on now...
who am i to judge anyone??
but here to tell u the truth...
FUCK the hell off!!!!!!!
i am feyroz aizu zainury...
n may i ASK where the HELL is everyone who says im their FRENS??
to be with me...ALL the fucking time???
it just SUCKS to realise that when a person TALKS, its nothing then to COMFORT!!!
WHERE'S the person who talks cock to stay with me trough RISE n FALL??
n may i ASK , am i ALONE in this fucking world??
tonite... i REALISED that i get the fuckin NOTHING from anyone...
to see it from the bright side.
NOTHING and ZERO.
i have sumone i DAMN CARE.
and WHERE is she??????
HAPPY WITH SUMONE ELSE????
not feeling that BAD though.
but may i ASK here, WHERE is the HELL is sumone???
that she often say...
ILY????
where???
y she naver nail???
damn!!!
i felt NEGLECTED !!
just hate the part of letting go!!!
but i neeed to!!!!

baru bermula...

im alfie.
BLOG.
i wonder what actually the real intention of my blog...
but yes...
at last...
i did it..im a pengkid..
boyish character of mine n YES,
i DO LOVE GIRLS.

im not a good english writer..
but this is about me my friends...
n our pengkid world