GONE AGAIN

now.its really late at night.
tomorrow will be the FINISHING day for me.
as 27th is the date.
i noe..as far as ur concern..
i ve been a hypocrite person to be happy in front of ol..
yet DAMN SAD deep down here.
but..thats who i am...
guys..
thanks 4 beeing all da way till i REACHED this part of ma life.
here i am.STANDING on the deemest stage of mine..
the lime light didnt hurt my eyes anymore.
as there r no more limelights.
ALL my lights..
were SWITCH OFF by myself.
i have to STAND on this SPECIFIC STAGE.
as i have no other other stage.
when i LET this off...
i noe it will feels like letting my own SOUL.
but its better diz way..
as...
my day went away...
i noe...
that SHE'S ALWAYS IN MY HEART.

SEKEJAP RASENYER

lohh...da nak masuk bulan 5 dah..jap jer da nak masuk bulan 7..
bile pikir balik kan...
berat susah rasenyer nak berubah jadi matangkan??

hmphh....
SELAMAT TINGGAL??
kepade...
MJ,QILATAM,EZA AMALINA,mangQI,QILAYAZ,NISA NORDIN,DIYANA NADIRAH,
MB,NOREIHAN YAAKOB,SHUHADAHANY ZAINURY.
selamat tggal kenangan stpm [sayangku]

pastu pasti aq rindu plak...
kat batch paling sempoy stpm...
batch paling havoc...
paling gler...
cikgupon sayams..
batch aqlar toh ann..

SELAMAT TINGGAL...
kepada..
BEEYA,SEMIR,DIEDA,WATON,NIETA,IENA NODIN/AZMAN,JALY [membe nyanyiku ] ,

SISY,ATENZATI,AWIN,ACIM,SYIEMA,MICK,NANADENAN,

LIMAH[bedak ].lol~banyak sangat lar..
SELAMAT TINGGAL..
aq da nak masuk u dah..

paling berat aq nak tinggalkan..
paling aq sayams..

SELAMAT TINGGAL
kepada..
ALONG [farahin ramlan],
UDA [airin abu bakar]
dan paling pasti...
UCU[azieyanie johar]
sumpah aq ta tahu mane nak cari kawan paling terbaek cam korunk kan!!!
takan dapat aq nak cari cam korunk ble aq da kat u nanti..
sayams3 korunk...
MENGHARAP Y KITER SEKOLAH SELAME2NYER................

LIE

whole day living in LIES n hipocracy..
SMILING.yet in the same time.
HURT.
may i ASK..
what does the word HURT brings here.
seeing from the context of hurt that i am saying.
IT FEELS LIKE DYING.
but looking at the brighter side of it..
ya...its a KARMA..
COMING back to me.
a SIMPLE question could be a very HARD one to be ANSWERED.
i LOST my soul.
YET,
why should i pretend to LAUGH?
why should i pretend to SMILE?
sumtimes it just HARD to answer a simple question.
but,let me tell u here.
smiling n laughin 4 that specific moment.
makes me know...
that she's HAPPY to be there.
yeah.
sounds like i need to LIE.
I WOULD LIE A THOUSAND TIME,
if that makes her STRONGER.
although...
BELIEVE ME...
im getting WEAKER...

i wonder whats going on in my mind.but.
this 4 U saya cipta lagu ta seberape neh...

REBAH DIRIKU DIHEMBUS ANGIN.....
KALA TUBUHKU TERASA DINGIN.....
SEJUKNYA MENERPA KE MINDAKU.....
MENGIGIT SETIAP KUDRAT KU.....
.. ..
KALA BINTANG KU LIHAT BERSINAR.....
WAJAHMU MUNCUL DI BALIK SANG BULAN.....
MEMBUAT KU MEMALINGKAN WAJAH.....
TAK SANGGUP MELIHAT BAYANGMU.....
.. ..
KU ANDAI KAU TIDAK MERASAKAN.....
APA YANG KU LUAHKAN.....
KERNA PASTI KAU SEDANG BAHAGIA.....
D BAWAH REMBESAN CAHAYA ITU.....
CAHAYA YANG BUAT KU TERLUKA.....
KINI MENJADI MADU HIDUPMU.....
TERPAKSA JUGA KU RELAKAN.....
TUK MELIHAT SEKUNTUM SENYUMAN.....
.. ..
KU TAK HEBAT KALA BERMADAH.....
BUKAN SEPERTI PENSYAIR INDAH.....
HANYA JUJUR Y KU LUAH.....
KERANA AKU YANG BERSALAH.....

*LATE*

am i LATE??

may the word LATE explain everything here.

as i have a LATE feeling that come after LOOSING.

as i have a LATE reaction that occurs after its OVER.

as i have a LATE consiousness,after its all left MEANINGLESS.

as a BIG question in my LIFE.

am i that LATE??

as i am saying about IT.

it came crossing

to my mind,if the word late doesn't exist.

should i BE..

inSCENSITIVE??

inAWARE??

or maybe, HEARTLESS??

should the word LATE answer EVRYTHING.

lonely

this one here,
goes out to all my playas out there.
you know.i got that ONE GOOD GIRL whose always been there like..
you know took all the bullshit..
then one day she CAN'T TAKE IT no more.
and decided to LEAVE..
woke up in the middle of the night and i noticed my girl wasn't by my side.
could've sworn i was DREAMING for her i was FAINTING.
so i had to take a little ride.
back tracking over this few years tryina figure out what i do to make it go bad.
cause ever since my girl LEFT me..
my whole life came CRASHING..
im so lonely..
im mr lonely..
i have nobody..
to call her my own..
i cant believe i had a girl like you..
but i just let u walk right out of my life.
.after all i put u through...
u still stuck around and stayed by my side..
what really hurt me is i BROKE UR HEART.
baby u WERE GOOD GIRL..
n i had NO RIGHT..
i just wanna makes things right.
coz without u gurl
im so lonely...
im mrlonely..
i have nobody...
to call her my own ...girl...

lepas akhirnya

sis...its been LONG since we met..
just as what i remembered...
it was one evening in 2005 at the field that u SAW me at first.
my sport training day...
as i remember it must be either MONDAY or THURSDAY..
as that was the day of my training...
wonder if u still REMEMBER that moment..
couse i DONT..
cause u keep it to urself...
until 2007...at that specific day,SORRY to say that i FORGOT.

sis....
i wonder if u noe...
how much i realy CARE??
cause i NEVER do TELL.
but i do care...n to SAY,i am LOSING.
you.

sis...
rase mcm baru semalam kiter KENAL kat ASTPM.
rase baru semalam awak bagi kiter KUNCI kaler BIRU toh..
rase baru semalam kite LEPAK together kan??
rase baru sejam lepas awak STUDY MATHS nan kiter sampai kiter BERJAYA dah capai CITE2.
rase baru jer jugak sejam lepas kiter datang UMAH awak makan tomyam ade CENDAWAN.
rase baru seminit lepas awak bagi kiter 3helai tshirt,HITAM,OREN,SOKLAT.tahu jer awak itu KALER kiter SUKER kan??
rase baru semalam jer awk JAGE kter mase kaki kite patah..TUAM kaki kiter..cop SHOWER kite..siapkan tempat solat kiter..TEMAN kiter pegi skulah tiap pagi[yelah manusia paling lambat time tue la katekan.] BAWAKKAN beg kiter sampai kelas kat TINGKAT 3..tggu kiter kat 'mcd' skewl tiap hari tok bawakan beg LAGI.ambilkan MAKANAN kiter dari dining.kadang kiter terfikir,kiter adeq qer.awak adeq??ta terkire JASA awak time tue.
dan sis...
rase baru sesaat lepas awak maseh ada lam PELUKAN kiter,n nampak muke awak tiap2 pagi BANGUN kat ostel nun...
tapi...skarang kiter da kene pegi dah...
LEPASKAN awak kat orang y lebih BERHAK..
kiter harap...orang tue takan LUKEKAN awak macam kiter dlu..
SUSAH nak lepaskan adek kiter yang satu2nyer neh...
yelah...bertahun2 bawah JAGAAN kiter kann...
sekarang da ade y PUNYER.
awk y kdue lepas ami.

sis...
TAKE CARE.
JAGA HATI DIE.
macam mane awak SELALU jaga HATI kite.
now i LET u go.

sumtimes when we start thinking

to tell u the truth...
today...at 11.05p.m at night...
i kinda realise...WHAT THE HELL IS ACTUALLY GOING ON IN MY LIFE YA???
im damn sad of what going on now...
who am i to judge anyone??
but here to tell u the truth...
FUCK the hell off!!!!!!!
i am feyroz aizu zainury...
n may i ASK where the HELL is everyone who says im their FRENS??
to be with me...ALL the fucking time???
it just SUCKS to realise that when a person TALKS, its nothing then to COMFORT!!!
WHERE'S the person who talks cock to stay with me trough RISE n FALL??
n may i ASK , am i ALONE in this fucking world??
tonite... i REALISED that i get the fuckin NOTHING from anyone...
to see it from the bright side.
NOTHING and ZERO.
i have sumone i DAMN CARE.
and WHERE is she??????
HAPPY WITH SUMONE ELSE????
not feeling that BAD though.
but may i ASK here, WHERE is the HELL is sumone???
that she often say...
ILY????
where???
y she naver nail???
damn!!!
i felt NEGLECTED !!
just hate the part of letting go!!!
but i neeed to!!!!

baru bermula...

im alfie.
BLOG.
i wonder what actually the real intention of my blog...
but yes...
at last...
i did it..im a pengkid..
boyish character of mine n YES,
i DO LOVE GIRLS.

im not a good english writer..
but this is about me my friends...
n our pengkid world